Confused

Drink a cup of milk, hope to sleep well tonight.
had a long time cant take a good rest, nightmare everyday, always bad dreams :(
Wish to say goodbye to upset, i dont want always moody or emo, already enough!
christmas coming soon, what to do? Hmm...i have no idea. because nobody to accompany, everybody working and my man too...haiz...evrybody was busy till DIE. So..lonely christmas.
funny right? i am a people of gemini....sob... what the shit ?!
i can't believe i will trough this christmas of alone! Damn disappoint :(
What the bad year?! many bad thing was occur around me! i has lost balance on the life road and i lost myself.
how to get it back? i was confused. i feel tired with the world and the life :(
God! please, take me back!
haiz...no more ...no more...

*i know it i broken english :(*