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Hi, Mommy.


I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, reblog.
AMEN!!!

依靠。

 

『吵鬧不可怕，沉默最可怕。——鳳凰衛視著名記者。』

今天是預考的第一天——華文。
作文題裡有一題名為『一起走過的日子』。從一開始的滿腦文字到最後的一片空白...
我寫作文從不少700個字，最多可以超過1000，但我今天卻只寫了四段。我並沒有對自己的表現感到訝異或太失望，因為這是預料之中的事。

連月發生的事情真的壓得我無法呼吸，無所適從。這一切讓我深感無言，我已經沒有資格去判斷是非對錯，因為我就連我自己都顧不來。儘管我骨子裡是一個愛哭包，但那些熱淚還是讓我忍下來了。我真的身心都感到疲憊了，我無法習慣過於變幻無常的生活。即使我知道這都是人生必經之路，但我還是無法承受...這麼多的是非，到底要到什麼時候才能被一一杜絕？我花盡心思，用時間累計回來的勇敢和堅強，最後還是敵不過打擊，被一一擊潰，支離破碎。

我一直都認為，有問題或發生矛盾就應該面對面談清楚，當面解決。但當下的我，實在喪失了那份勇敢。猜忌、不信任、足夠毀了我『建立』回來的『快樂』。我的生活是完完全全失去了平衡。

經過一輪心理掙扎，本想把『難受』留在班上，待下課的時候過去隔壁班找我『多年』的『摯友』『快樂快樂』...很遺憾，我還沒出門就已經看見他們走了。心裡一陣悲涼，才發覺，每天會在班上等我的就只有『她』，『她』沒來，我就是一個人。

看著他們逐漸遠去的背影，眼眶一陣濕潤，才知道，朋友再多，我終究還是要一個人走。所謂的『精神支柱』，或許只能出現在感情文字裡。真實世界，沒有人喜歡『包袱』。再怎麼難受，還是得學習一個人抗。世界這麼大，有故事的人這麼多，誰又真的那麼空閒去聆聽別人的悲傷？

我從不隨便依賴別人、信任、依靠，因為我知道不是每個人都會用真心對待自己，一天還沒看清，我都不會和別人混的太熟。果然，感情不夠穩固的，都有機會出賣自己。我嘆息，我悲哀，並不是因為感情不穩固，而是自責，責怪自己，為什麼要這麼意氣用事？說好的，再也不與人交心。事情一而再的發生，我想，再多一些時日我就能做到。

經過一次又一次的打擊，我不想，我不會，再依賴別人。現實生活，就是如此的殘忍。朋友多的是，在你有難時能幫你的，或回報的，有多少個？不設計陷害你，不勾心鬥角，已經要謝天謝地了。或許別人會覺得我太偏激，但無奈，我的生活逼得我不能不想現實低頭。信念再堅定，終有一天會被『情感』拖累。

曾聽一位朋友感概道，情願依賴男朋友也不依賴朋友，朋友多是非多，勾心鬥角。我說，怎麼可以這麼說啊！很疑惑。我說朋友才是一輩子的，男朋友也會拋棄自己啊！21世紀，有多少男人不變心？而如今，我才發覺他未嘗不是也有道理。果然，好朋友不如好情人，我把它換成『A good lover is better than a good friend.』

自此以後，我學習沉默、學習平靜，從以前的『學習站在圈圈外面看世界』到後來的『當個啞子』...我看透很多，儘管朋友來逗我，找我吵架什麼的，我都不想再多說些什麼。我看人，真的看得很透。 不要說爆粗，連話，我都懶的說。突然有種想要離開的感受，不想和人太熟絡。我累了。就算是路易斯，我也想放棄。

至今，能夠做到『基本信任』的，已經所剩無幾了。從前三個，到現在兩個。我在想，我在倒數，哪一天剩下的這兩位也會離開我，或出賣我。當然我不希望會發生，但人生無常，誰又能去計算明天？

依靠... ...我從來都沒有遇見可以依靠的人。

習慣，就好。

Silence doesn't mean i don't concerned it.

 

『 Don't believe what your eyes telling you. All they show is limitation. Look with your understanding.——Richard Bach 』

Gosh, i was BLUE today. Too much BLACK all around me :(
I always took life just seriously, but when all the bad things are constantly came to me and everything is out of control, i had only realize that im not enough mature, im still NAIVE and FRIVOLOUS. Dear FRIENDS, sometimes we are all so ignorant, we ought to knew that Knowledge and virtue is the different things.

Is that as we grow up will become loneliness? everyone as the same? Someone said that, life comes with no guarantees, no times out, no second chances. We will never knew what about our future, so why don't you guys just understanding? is that difficult to do? WAKE UP !! Cherish it before it becomes to injury. Wound are ever couldn't be rubbed.

Once upon a time i thought we could be forever innocence , just like a kid.
Cry out loud, when we were sad, even if have people there, just cry like a kid, like a kid when fell down. Laugh out loud, when we were happy, even if just a candy or little present or something like that, we are who we are, just LAUGH.  Because of we are just a kid, so we can do what we want to do and no one would blamed us.

Nothing is lasts forever, all of us must independent when we as grow up, there is no reason to said "NO". But now, am totally tired at all, whatever friendship or love. Those unnecessary war is killing me in gradually. I wish to scream out loud that WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WORLD? Everything became not simply. PEOPLE, somebody came to me and teach me the best way to solve problem? i have no idea at all, my brain is empty now :(

*Don't tease me because of my english was not in totally correct. I will try my best to learned and used, i will sucessfully some day. :x *

『 When I was a kid, I didn't have a laptop, iPod, Blackberry , PS3, Wifi or iPads. I played outside with friends, bruised my knees, made up stories and played hide and seek. I ate what my mom made. I would think twice before I said "no" to my parents. Life wasn't hard, it was good & I survived. Kids these days are spoiled. Re-post this if you appreciate the way you were raised. I think we were happier kids! —— copyright from internet 』